MILLIE GREEN’S STORY

Full-time Student / ” FROM THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN”

After a difficult childhood, I grew a severe fear of abandonment and becoming attached to people too quickly. I thrive off of love and attention these days, because it seemed to have lacked heavily as I was younger. I’m known to love people who don’t show any love or care back to me. I’ve ended up in abusive relationships without being able to leave due to my attachment towards them. Having this issue is draining to my mental health, as I end up giving so much of my time and passion to make the person I want happy, when I myself am not happy at all.

Because of my need to give people I care about everything they want from me, I have ended up in possibly dangerous situations — from having my nudes leaked to being sexually assaulted on multiple occasions. As any young girl not knowing much about mental health, I didn’t tell anyone and let my problems brew inside of me.

Over the past years in my teens I have been through a lot of difficult stages that have affected me and made me feel the need to speak up about it. I initially went to school counseling and then to therapy for these mental illnesses. I then learnt these struggles were actually depression, anxiety and derealisation disorder. Upon receiving these diagnoses, I initially felt lost and confused but was determined to get to the bottom of it. Those around me encouraged me to find the motivation to get better that I simply could not find within myself. I still have bad days but have felt a dramatic difference since speaking up. The main change occurs when you finally take yourself seriously—the little voice in your head telling you that you’re making it up is not real.